It's that time of year! I love it! When I got up today Spring cleaning was in session. I've wanted to really get the nitty gritty of all my rooms and so I started with the bathroom which took me about 2 hours and if you ask my husband he would say, "Lacey it's not even dirty." I'm not going to lie, I'm a bit Obsessive when it comes to cleaning. Anyway So when Greg got up we went Grocery shopping and I bought some new cleaning stuff and he gets to do the baseboards and all the hands and knee's mopping and things up high. I just stay in the middle of it all - it's much easier with this giant belly to stay in the middle of the rooms. I just really want the place super clean when we bring the baby home which means I'm probably going to end up doing it all over again since he won't be here for 5 more weeks, but I feel much better when I know that I have cleaned ever nook and cranny even if people wouldn't really notice. Greg is doing laundry right now and then we have to get back to cleaning...he's such a helpful husband!
We were going to go see a movie today, but it's raining and I hate being out in the rain, so we might just watch a netflix movie and play some scrabble...which I must say I beat him twice at yesterday which never happens...and by never I mean I have NEVER beaten him!
On a different note..why must James Patterson be so vulgar? He has great story lines but geez louise the language is out of control and really do we need to read about 20 different love makin' scenes? After I skipped about 20 chapters so I wouldn't have to feel like I was watching porn I decided I would never recommend them to LDS people so why am I reading them? If they were movies they would definitely be rated R. So, James Patterson, until you can write a book with less of the dirty dirty I will never read them again.
I'm 35 weeks! I'm starting to get a little nervous about everything. I'm not sure if it's just hormones or if it's all just starting to really become real. Sometimes I see how creative people are with their kids and I have absolutely no creative bone in my body, so I worry that I will be such a bore. My sweet sister in-law was talking to me about this concern of mine and she said she doesn't try to worry about being creative she just tries to focus on not yelling at them and just being patient because she feels like they will remember that love more than the creative things. I would like to have both qualities, but she's right being patient and loving all the time is much more important and that is how they will remember me more not necessarily by what I did craft wise. I also think about how I am responsible for taking care of my husband and the baby right now until he graduates and that is so stressful. It wasn't this stressful until recently because it's all starting to come into focus and I am the only way my little one eats (once he stops breastfeeding) and has a roof over his head and it just feels like a lot of pressure. So for the past month or so I've been trying to find things at work to do or do the things we have to do before other people can get to them to make me feel better about my job security and to just work harder. It's easy to feel like there isn't much to do when I'm stuck in dental rooms just watching them do dental surgeries, but I can actually leave those rooms more frequently and find things to do. I definitely feel like I am still learning and thankfully one of the CRNA's told me to not beat myself up until I have been in the OR for at least a year, so a part me feels like I still have time to progress but another part of me feels like I should be more efficient than I am by now. In my defense I started working in the OR when I just found out I was pregnant so I was EXHAUSTED! After I stopped orienting I pretty much had to relearn everything because I was so tired I couldn't focus on what was being taught to me. I read the Gospel Principles lesson over work and I think it has made me want to be better as well. It's so important to be self reliant and to not have to lean on others and Heavenly Father strongly dislikes laziness and idleness, so I've been trying to pick up the slack I feel like I have had as a wife, co-worker, and servant of the Lord and I know the Lord will bless me for my efforts even if it's just the feeling of comfort.
Lacey, you look so cute! Don't sweat the mom stuff. You are one of the sweetest people I know. You'll do great! Make sure you and your sweetheart go ou t a few more times before he's born because it won't be happening for a while.
ReplyDeleteNesting??? Makes me wonder if you are really going to make it 5 more weeks! Let's go 3 and then he can come anytime after that! You are so cute. You do a wonderful job at work. You have to remember who you work with. We are circulators...Once I heard us described as creatures who "eat their young". I think that is a little harsh, I think that we can be selfish and anti-social but cannibalistic come on!
ReplyDeleteI know that you know my goals "in the back"...You make them easy! Thanks for being one of those people that make work a good place to be.
You will do fine. I know I'm not an adequate mother in all things but they will turn out just fine. You look great, 5 more weeks wow. I know it's shallow but I'm totally jelious of your weight gain and everything. I think the next time I get prego I'm going to still faithfully workout;) can wait to meet the little guy:)
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone... I just don't want to be a failure as a mother and I think I'm struggling a little knowing I have to leave him and go back to work which makes me feel like I'm neglecting him. Jenae- We have definitely been spending more quality time together lately. It's hard with his school and me working full time, but that's what weekends are for! Joey- I love working with you and I'm glad you know how I feel. I think in nursing in general we eat our young..I swore when I graduated I would never do that to new RN's because we've all been new once! Thank you Joey for everything I know I ask you a million questions everyday and I'm sure it gets old but I'm very grateful for you. Mel- I'm starting to pack on the pounds now, but I think he's finally starting to catch up in weight. Working out probably helped too, but who knows...I may not be like this next pregnancy and I still have 5 weeks and the new weight gain rate is 3lbs in 2 weeks...so if it stays this way...It won't be pretty. Anyway thank you all...you guys are fantastic!
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